oh man, i cant really stand 111 project discussions anymore, it's so freaking overwhelming. too much to take. kill me now. i think i have done alot more thinking this one and a half months than i ever did during my days as an intern. thank goodness (or is it a bane?) for group mates who think quite abit, are very driven, logical, i was forced to use my brain, which i think haven been stimulated in a long long time.

jus hoping that things will turn out fine in the end and no, some other grp which only started on monday night for presentation on this thurs will not do better than us. if they do, then something's really wrong with us, which i dun wanna know. let's keep going.

jus wondering how objective peer evaluations can be. hmmm. the dark side of reality. but no, i think our grp will be quite nice. heh.

but nah, i will be fine after awhile. tomorrow is another day. no, maybe by the time i get out of this meeting, i'll be fine =)

oh no. i think i just stepped on someone's toes. it's been a long time since i really did step on someone's toes. shit. i feel bad now. i guess i jus phrased my words the wrong way. mebbe i meant it another way, jus that it dint come out rite. ya layming, WATCH your tone ok? ok.

shit. i think there's a devil inside me.

since yesterday, i have felt the negative energy surrounding me, it came from frens i cherish, and it came from within myself. I had an outburst jus now cos i really felt like things were falling from the sky all at the same time! so i called cheryl, ranted, grumbled, whined, screamed, exclaimed, complained and shrieked. felt so much better after that and for some reason, the world seemed a better place. thanks. and my poor roomie suffered too cos i was screaming sooo loudly. haha. sorry ah.

later, i realised that actually i am not the onli one who feels this way. some pple ard me have similar probs, if not other probs of their own to cope with. and being the strong and cheery layming i am, i shall embark on Operation Laughter, or Mission Smile at the very least to brighten other pple's lives. haha. i jus enjoy seeing ppl not frown lah. when they are happy, i am happy. :P

some of my frens came over and we had a mini-get-together session. there were 9 of us all squeezed into this little room of mine and it was so re4 nao4, like new year like that lor pls. i think we shld have more of these. so exciting and fun. haha =P

talking about friends, thank goodness i have a bunch of ppl to talk and laugh with in school. if not, i think i will jus die. cos those who know me will know that i'm the dun-talk-will-die kind of person so i cant imagine if i have no frens!!!! that will be quite horrendous and terrifying!!! haha =P

anyway, why i love hanging out with the people i hang out with now is cos sometimes what they say is totally unthinkable and out of this world and it's jus sooooo funny u cant help but burst out laughing. out of nowhere, you can have someone talking about FLYING, not frying, pratas at a supper table; then people who think i am super auntie, even more so after they heard a convo between me and my mum - i dunno why they thot the convo was super funny even tough that's the usual way i talk to my mum; on another occasion, this weird, crappy, funny yet comfortable-to-talk-to friend, who's always trying to make me talk softer when she's telling me some exciting gossipy stuff (how to control la? i so ba gua! =P), talked to me about raising a rabbit army if she could and sth bout her submarines or sth like that during 101 and i almost freaked out man! i mean, it was in a mere few secs that she thot of sth like that that i would nv expect from someone so i was quite stumped. and i seem to be getting weirder and crazier as i mix more and more with them. oh no, someone save me! haha =P

but ok lah, it's cos of this people that school becomes abit more bearable and life becomes a little more colourful. =)